Sure, Inigo knows the answer to her question. If this really is some form of BB, BB in some way, BB before she became BB - then of course it's what she's going to become. He can't think of any other reason as to why Sakura would have BB's device. It would be impossible for her to have it unless they're the same person.
But with the way she asks it.. He isn't sure he can tell her. It feels like Sakura is begging him to tell her absolutely anything else than the truth in this moment, and it's sad for so many reasons that the look in the young man's eyes immediately becomes so much more sad. He doesn't want Sakura to seem so worried, but--
There's also something about the idea of becoming BB being detestable in some way that hurts him even more. ]
I don't know what you might be thinking, milady.
[ His voice is thick. Like emotion is creeping up on him, but he's making such an effort to remain strong in the face of it, to speak clearly.
Even if Sakura is BB, even if BB isn't here - he has to defend her honor. Isn't that the least he should do? ]
But it's-- It is not a bad thing at all. BB is..
[ ... ]
She is important to me.
[ Inigo still looks so sad, especially in his gaze.
[ Sakura looks over to Inigo, watching his own expression seem to change in soft waves. Nothing that seemed to tell her that he was struggling in any way with how he felt about the situation regarding BB. If anything, she could tell, he was a good person and trying his hardest to deal with the situation at hand. Sakura felt ashamed, seemingly putting something like this on his shoulders rather suddenly. Humans aren't meant to be faced with AI's and their complications... So she already finds herself attempting to backtrack and ease away from the topic at hand. ]
Well, [ She offers a trying smile, ensuring that they can move away from what is going on here. ] I suppose if someone like you can come to like her, then maybe... It isn't so bad after all.
[ Accepting the circumstances at the moment, she places the phone back into her pocket and looks over into the distance. ]
I was lost at first, [ Always lost, and uneasy. ] I guess in the end I don't belong here, and should find a way to return myself back - huh?
Don't ever say such a sad thing as I don't belong here. [ Even if it's true.. It feels awful to hear. Especially when Sakura seems perfectly nice. Inigo doesn't ever want to have to hear those words from another good person. ] Let's instead say..
[ The boy seems to think for a moment, shaking his head as he slowly manages to reach the wording that feels right. ]
We can try to find a way to bring you back to where you wish or need to be, and then also see if there is a way to get BB back here. I wouldn't wish for you to have to occupy yourself with that task all by yourself, so.. I will be by your side to help you with it, however much you might need.
[ A short pause, surprised by what he said. Confused even, ] That is so weird to hear as an AI. [ She giggles a bit, unable to find his statement unfunny. It is funny because it's so contrary to her existence, and the fact a human - what she is created to take care of. Instructs her to speak in a way that goes against her every purpose, and what she is. When she herself, can't particularly have any say against that.... It is all so funny to her. So she giggles, girlishly, trying to wipe away any tears that come about from her laughter. ] I know you.... [ A breath. She is smiling warmly at him. ] I know you don't seem to understand what that is, but, please... It's okay, if BB is who I am, then, BB is who I should go back to being. I am a little afraid, to be honest, everything that I saw doesn't reflect how I feel as I am now.
[ She pauses once more, watching him idly. ]
I wouldn't want to keep her away from anyone who cherishes her.
His attitude doesn't fade entirely, and he's still smiling, but the smile grows a little bit smaller as he seems to think - and then finally speaks up. ]
How come you are laughing if you're afraid?
[ Apparently that's the part he was trying to figure out while thinking just now - though there was even more going through his mind.
It's just that this part of it is the easiest for Inigo to put into words. ]
It's... Disbelief I think? [ Prompt is her momentous pause as she looks down a bit sheepishly. Tugging the locks of her hair behind her ear, as she attempts to find the right words to speak her own feelings into existence. ] I am just surprised... It's so strange to me that any one person can feel that way for an AI. [ Merely an inconsequential existence. There is no purpose for her outside of serving humans and attending to their needs - yet, this human feels that she has some purpose beyond what is expected of her. It is something beyond her own conception of understanding as she is. ] Humans are truly amazing.
[ His mouth opens, then closes. Inigo isn't too sure if he should be the one speaking on this when he knows so very little about AI, but-- It doesn't feel right to not say this right now either. Someone has to say it for her sake, and if he has to do it clumsily, it's probably better than no one at all doing it.
Even if this technically isn't BB. It's someone who will one day become her, and so-- she's important to him all the same. ]
I know it might seem different to you, but.. I don't think there is much of a difference between you and me at all. When I talk to you, it feels as if I am speaking to any person out there. And as far as I'm concerned-- I think every person out there should be allowed to be happy, regardless of who or what they are.
[ He ducks his head a little, something about him seeming a touch shy. ]
I feel like I know what you might say. [ BB has said a lot about being an AI too, whatever that might mean. But it always seems to stop her from allowing herself things, and it bothers him. Inigo doesn't want to hear it from Sakura too. ] But please.. allow those words to just exist. Allow my hopes for you to exist.
[ Sakura can't help but warmly remember what Qifrey said to her, and she, quietly parrots what the teacher said to her. Back towards Inigo, wondering if perhaps his own words were in some way trying to ensure her that it was okay... ]
[ A small and warm bit of laughter leaves her lips again; it truly is so compelling to her and heartwarming. ]
Feelings, I mean, right? Someone told me that not too long ago... If it is enough to feel to me, then, of course, it is real... Of course, my own happiness exists. [ She gently plays with a lock of hair and places it behind her ear. Feeling a bit shy now around him. ] Thank you, Inigo-san... Haha, I learned so much from you today. In such a short conversation. Hehe... I guess that kind of makes you my Senpai, doesn't it?
Again, huh? Inigo figures that it's likely just because Sakura and BB must be the same person in some sort of way he could never figure out even if he really thought about it. It can't be that it's like there's something destined between him and her that keeps bringing them back to this point, surely. Sakura must just think the same way BB does.
Still, Inigo feels a touch flustered, and he ducks his head in a futile attempt to try and hide the red of the blush on his cheeks just a little bit. ]
Ah, no, I'm the one who should feel honored.. I'm just glad that you decided to accept my words.
[ BB, Sakura, whichever--
Inigo just wants to make sure she's alright, no matter the circumstances. ]
And if you do manage to return BB to this place, or you manage to turn back into her, then-- um, I just want to say.. if you still remember this conversation by then, please don't feel burdened or embarrassed by it in any way. I promise I am glad to see you in any form.
[ IS THIS SHIT DESTINED? I DON'T KNOW WHY DID YOU DO THAT FIRST THREAD JELLE? EVERYDAY I ASK MYSELF THESE QUESTIONS? ]
[ Accept the words into her heart, just as she accepted so many others during her time as Sakura into herself. To be so raw and in existence the way that she is, to be something for once that her copy of a copy - would have never been otherwise. It is a fascinating thing that will last forever, and, ultimately, make her a unique existence as a BB. As the one who is closest to the original, as she, could ever be. ]
To be truthful... I still wish that I could stay this way... With you as I am, when I saw her on the oracle, she seems to be confrontational... I.. Don't know why I would ever want to be that way. [ She says this, but recalls what everyone had said and frankly, the kindness of Inigo before her. ] B-But maybe there must be a reason for it, maybe...?
If um... If in the end she-er, I am helpful to all of you, then maybe it's okay? [ Maybe it is okay? She doesn't understand the reason to be abrasive to humanity when one should be kind and full of compassion towards them. ] Maybe it's okay... Right? In the end, if I am super helpful and doing my job, then, maybe even becoming a final boss ok, right?
O-Oh.. Sorry, that kind of sounded lame, actually; [ She starts looking left and right, playing with her hair. Totally embarrassed by the stupid thing she just said. ] I just thought maybe it was cool... Y-You know?
You know final bosses usually are because there are no other bosses anymore? So if I become the final boss, then that means I took out the other bosses? So then humans just have to take me out or something right? That's helpful, [ She is covering her face, and super red. ] I think. Ah... Sorry that's so stupid.
[ Well, at least Inigo doesn't think it's stupid. Sure, he thinks it's a little confusing, but that doesn't mean it's necessarily stupid or ridiculous! ]
Ah, you know, I'm not so sure if it's even that..
[ .. granted, it is that.
But then again, there's a lot about BB that Inigo doesn't necessarily understand, hence why he has such a different interpretation of all this, shaking his head a little. ]
I think it's more just that BB is the kind of girl who has trouble fully expressing her feelings. So sometimes it might come out in a way that seems.. [ .. his voice trails off for a moment, like he's trying to find the right words, but he gives Sakura a small, friendly smile all the same. ] .. counterproductive, maybe..? Or just confusing. But I think she means well.
Well... As AI, we are not meant to have feelings in the capacity that she does. [ Sakura thinks back to the situations she saw on the phone moments before. However, Inigo's statements show her how he feels so lost by it all. It makes her wish that she could be more help in some way. ] I don't understand how she got that way, or.. I.. Or well... [ You know, she is a bit flushed. ] Our existence was primarily to take care of others, feelings don't serve any purpose to that cause. Her feelings should have alarmed the Moon Cell, and she should have been deleted right away. However, she isn't... [ Sakura is thinking, she wishes she could understand it all, maybe if she had some time to study logs and go through things - but much of what she tried to see before. Seemed barred from her access. ] Do you want to understand her?
[ At least that answer comes quickly, it's something Inigo doesn't really have to think about. Of course he wants to understand BB. It's the one thing he's been wanting this entire time ever since meeting her - especially when she's someone who seems so hard to ever truly grasp.
But even though he's sure of that answer, there's still something else on his face, a look that's a little more confused. Or just worried.
Because-- ]
I don't.. like that talk though. Or-- erm, that idea, I suppose. [ Since he doesn't want Sakura to feel like it's her fault either. It's clearly something she's been taught. It's the fault of whatever taught her. ] No one in the world should have to go without emotions. How could anyone truly live like that? That's not right for neither you nor her.
Mm... If you want, I can probably pull up her files... [ One other person had done this, though where he stole it, Sakura is here willing to give it freely. She moves herself already freely over to where screens can appear once more, looking around at the specific data she is looking for. Sure enough, to her surprise, she found it - with items on it that made even her raise an eyebrow.
Why didn't she just look for this first?
Tapping on it, she was able to unknowingly use her item creation skill to make it into a physical item in hand. There is no surprise though, she almost figured something like that would occur. Regardless, a folder with data within it, easily falls into her hands. Rather than read it, though, she turns towards Inigo and hands it over. ]
Here, [ All the secrets you could ever have, right in your hands. From start to finish, everything that you could ever want to have. Regarding her, is here in this folder. It had once been taken by Robin Hood, and given to Hakuno in another universe. This time, it's her reset self, sabotaging her own existence - funny how it all comes around. Imagine, if anyone else but Inigo reads this. ] I really think you should have this.
[ Considering that Inigo has no idea what exactly someone's files are, maybe it's for the better that Sakura manages to summon a physical copy of what she's talking about. It makes it a little more clear to the young man what she's getting at. It means.. information, right? In that folder is information about BB. Everything he wanted to know, all the things he couldn't understand - they're all contained in there. If he just took it and read it, he would be able to grasp her so much more whenever he'd talk to her.
It seems like a great idea to take it, and yet--
-- and yet Inigo shakes his head when Sakura holds it out to her, a small smile on his face. ]
No, I don't think I should. [ Not that he doesn't think it's kind on Sakura's end to want to give this to him. ] I don't think it's fair to just learn about someone this way. I am sure that if there is anything BB wants to tell me, then she will let me know. I wouldn't want to find out about any of it behind her back. It just.. wouldn't be right.
[ It would be disrespectful towards her, and he doesn't want to be that. ]
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Sure, Inigo knows the answer to her question. If this really is some form of BB, BB in some way, BB before she became BB - then of course it's what she's going to become. He can't think of any other reason as to why Sakura would have BB's device. It would be impossible for her to have it unless they're the same person.
But with the way she asks it.. He isn't sure he can tell her. It feels like Sakura is begging him to tell her absolutely anything else than the truth in this moment, and it's sad for so many reasons that the look in the young man's eyes immediately becomes so much more sad. He doesn't want Sakura to seem so worried, but--
There's also something about the idea of becoming BB being detestable in some way that hurts him even more. ]
I don't know what you might be thinking, milady.
[ His voice is thick. Like emotion is creeping up on him, but he's making such an effort to remain strong in the face of it, to speak clearly.
Even if Sakura is BB, even if BB isn't here - he has to defend her honor. Isn't that the least he should do? ]
But it's-- It is not a bad thing at all. BB is..
[ ... ]
She is important to me.
[ Inigo still looks so sad, especially in his gaze.
But he also sounds so serious at the same time. ]
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[ Sakura looks over to Inigo, watching his own expression seem to change in soft waves. Nothing that seemed to tell her that he was struggling in any way with how he felt about the situation regarding BB. If anything, she could tell, he was a good person and trying his hardest to deal with the situation at hand. Sakura felt ashamed, seemingly putting something like this on his shoulders rather suddenly. Humans aren't meant to be faced with AI's and their complications... So she already finds herself attempting to backtrack and ease away from the topic at hand. ]
Well, [ She offers a trying smile, ensuring that they can move away from what is going on here. ] I suppose if someone like you can come to like her, then maybe... It isn't so bad after all.
[ Accepting the circumstances at the moment, she places the phone back into her pocket and looks over into the distance. ]
I was lost at first, [ Always lost, and uneasy. ] I guess in the end I don't belong here, and should find a way to return myself back - huh?
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Don't ever say such a sad thing as I don't belong here. [ Even if it's true.. It feels awful to hear. Especially when Sakura seems perfectly nice. Inigo doesn't ever want to have to hear those words from another good person. ] Let's instead say..
[ The boy seems to think for a moment, shaking his head as he slowly manages to reach the wording that feels right. ]
We can try to find a way to bring you back to where you wish or need to be, and then also see if there is a way to get BB back here. I wouldn't wish for you to have to occupy yourself with that task all by yourself, so.. I will be by your side to help you with it, however much you might need.
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[ She pauses once more, watching him idly. ]
I wouldn't want to keep her away from anyone who cherishes her.
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The young man is quiet for a moment.
His attitude doesn't fade entirely, and he's still smiling, but the smile grows a little bit smaller as he seems to think - and then finally speaks up. ]
How come you are laughing if you're afraid?
[ Apparently that's the part he was trying to figure out while thinking just now - though there was even more going through his mind.
It's just that this part of it is the easiest for Inigo to put into words. ]
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[ His mouth opens, then closes. Inigo isn't too sure if he should be the one speaking on this when he knows so very little about AI, but-- It doesn't feel right to not say this right now either. Someone has to say it for her sake, and if he has to do it clumsily, it's probably better than no one at all doing it.
Even if this technically isn't BB. It's someone who will one day become her, and so-- she's important to him all the same. ]
I know it might seem different to you, but.. I don't think there is much of a difference between you and me at all. When I talk to you, it feels as if I am speaking to any person out there. And as far as I'm concerned-- I think every person out there should be allowed to be happy, regardless of who or what they are.
[ He ducks his head a little, something about him seeming a touch shy. ]
I feel like I know what you might say. [ BB has said a lot about being an AI too, whatever that might mean. But it always seems to stop her from allowing herself things, and it bothers him. Inigo doesn't want to hear it from Sakura too. ] But please.. allow those words to just exist. Allow my hopes for you to exist.
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"Isn't it enough if they feel real to you?"
[ A small and warm bit of laughter leaves her lips again; it truly is so compelling to her and heartwarming. ]
Feelings, I mean, right? Someone told me that not too long ago... If it is enough to feel to me, then, of course, it is real... Of course, my own happiness exists. [ She gently plays with a lock of hair and places it behind her ear. Feeling a bit shy now around him. ] Thank you, Inigo-san... Haha, I learned so much from you today. In such a short conversation. Hehe... I guess that kind of makes you my Senpai, doesn't it?
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Again, huh? Inigo figures that it's likely just because Sakura and BB must be the same person in some sort of way he could never figure out even if he really thought about it. It can't be that it's like there's something destined between him and her that keeps bringing them back to this point, surely. Sakura must just think the same way BB does.
Still, Inigo feels a touch flustered, and he ducks his head in a futile attempt to try and hide the red of the blush on his cheeks just a little bit. ]
Ah, no, I'm the one who should feel honored.. I'm just glad that you decided to accept my words.
[ BB, Sakura, whichever--
Inigo just wants to make sure she's alright, no matter the circumstances. ]
And if you do manage to return BB to this place, or you manage to turn back into her, then-- um, I just want to say.. if you still remember this conversation by then, please don't feel burdened or embarrassed by it in any way. I promise I am glad to see you in any form.
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[ Accept the words into her heart, just as she accepted so many others during her time as Sakura into herself. To be so raw and in existence the way that she is, to be something for once that her copy of a copy - would have never been otherwise. It is a fascinating thing that will last forever, and, ultimately, make her a unique existence as a BB. As the one who is closest to the original, as she, could ever be. ]
To be truthful... I still wish that I could stay this way... With you as I am, when I saw her on the oracle, she seems to be confrontational... I.. Don't know why I would ever want to be that way. [ She says this, but recalls what everyone had said and frankly, the kindness of Inigo before her. ] B-But maybe there must be a reason for it, maybe...?
If um... If in the end she-er, I am helpful to all of you, then maybe it's okay? [ Maybe it is okay? She doesn't understand the reason to be abrasive to humanity when one should be kind and full of compassion towards them. ] Maybe it's okay... Right? In the end, if I am super helpful and doing my job, then, maybe even becoming a final boss ok, right?
[ A pause, and then - ]
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You know final bosses usually are because there are no other bosses anymore? So if I become the final boss, then that means I took out the other bosses? So then humans just have to take me out or something right? That's helpful, [ She is covering her face, and super red. ] I think. Ah... Sorry that's so stupid.
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Ah, you know, I'm not so sure if it's even that..
[ .. granted, it is that.
But then again, there's a lot about BB that Inigo doesn't necessarily understand, hence why he has such a different interpretation of all this, shaking his head a little. ]
I think it's more just that BB is the kind of girl who has trouble fully expressing her feelings. So sometimes it might come out in a way that seems.. [ .. his voice trails off for a moment, like he's trying to find the right words, but he gives Sakura a small, friendly smile all the same. ] .. counterproductive, maybe..? Or just confusing. But I think she means well.
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[ At least that answer comes quickly, it's something Inigo doesn't really have to think about. Of course he wants to understand BB. It's the one thing he's been wanting this entire time ever since meeting her - especially when she's someone who seems so hard to ever truly grasp.
But even though he's sure of that answer, there's still something else on his face, a look that's a little more confused. Or just worried.
Because-- ]
I don't.. like that talk though. Or-- erm, that idea, I suppose. [ Since he doesn't want Sakura to feel like it's her fault either. It's clearly something she's been taught. It's the fault of whatever taught her. ] No one in the world should have to go without emotions. How could anyone truly live like that? That's not right for neither you nor her.
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Why didn't she just look for this first?
Tapping on it, she was able to unknowingly use her item creation skill to make it into a physical item in hand. There is no surprise though, she almost figured something like that would occur. Regardless, a folder with data within it, easily falls into her hands. Rather than read it, though, she turns towards Inigo and hands it over. ]
Here, [ All the secrets you could ever have, right in your hands. From start to finish, everything that you could ever want to have. Regarding her, is here in this folder. It had once been taken by Robin Hood, and given to Hakuno in another universe. This time, it's her reset self, sabotaging her own existence - funny how it all comes around. Imagine, if anyone else but Inigo reads this. ] I really think you should have this.
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It seems like a great idea to take it, and yet--
-- and yet Inigo shakes his head when Sakura holds it out to her, a small smile on his face. ]
No, I don't think I should. [ Not that he doesn't think it's kind on Sakura's end to want to give this to him. ] I don't think it's fair to just learn about someone this way. I am sure that if there is anything BB wants to tell me, then she will let me know. I wouldn't want to find out about any of it behind her back. It just.. wouldn't be right.
[ It would be disrespectful towards her, and he doesn't want to be that. ]